Winter Blahs or Bummed Out?

Not sure why, but I've just been feelin' kinda bummed out lately. Maybe it's because I've been diggin' through Ciara's baby pictures, talking about college, filling out financial aid paperwork and helping Ciara apply for tons of scholarships. :( It's a bit overwhelming. Just the list of "to do's" . I feel that I'm truly embracing the new season of life our family is entering into... so why do I feel so sad about it? She's my first born and in just a few short months she will be old enough to go out into the world on her own... and my baby boy is shaving... UGH!! Ok... so in my head I accept it - but in my heart... there could be a bit of a struggle. I think it's hitting me because the months and years have passed by so quickly that I fear in a snap my kids will be gone. I realize this is the natural progression of things... I also realize now how my "older" friends were feeling when they were watching their kids graduate and move out of the nest. One never truly comprehends it until they are going through it themself. I have 1 more year with Ciara as she has agreed to live at home for her freshman year at FHSU. I'm so thankful for that!! I think it will make me feel better about sending her out when her dad and I have had this time to train her to live independently and handle finances.

I think it doesn't help that the weather has been so icky. We've had a few nice days... but generally it's been cold and windy. I'm just ready for some fresh air and sunshine. I was discussing my blahs with honeyman last night before bed and he said that February is the month most people get depressed because they're experiencing cabin fever. Hmm... makes sense to me.

Anyway... please pray for me... for my heart - that I'll be able to let go and cope with my babies bein' all grown up. :) I love 'em so much. "To everything there is a season"... I know I will enjoy having that time with Luke too, once they move out - but for now my heart is in transition. Just need a little help with that. :)